Friday, October 28, 2005
SOCIAL AFFAIRSWell, this year really passed very fast, and I have fostered many new friendships with many people. Last year, everybody was still very unfamiliar with each other so we had limited groups of friends, but I daresay that 1/4 last year was very united! But my circle of friends stretched little, and this year it has increased, yup. Last time, I didn't know roland that well, although we were in the same cca. But this year, I have become really good friends with him and I treasure it. Not in a GAY way mind you... I like girls, I don't like boys. I improved relations with other people like jia sheng. Last year, we made deals to see who could score higher than each other in our results. And I beat him for the whole of last year, haha. But this year the competition stiffened and he got better at english, especially SUMMARY, so I had a hard time. So we came to appreciate each other's strengths at different subjects and he became a good study partner, although I do think that half the time what he says is untrue... I also got along better with harry this year. Last year we were kind of like, okay okay, but this year through pds and other things, we actually came to know each other better. There was actually a period when we were quite agitated with each other, over the pds thing, but I'm relieved that nothing has blown up. He's a great joker and usually sparks off all the laughter and unnecessary comments in class, so he brings all of us a great laugh ocassionally. I have come to a greater understanding with rahimi and walter and we often talk about how to make np better, which is quite a common interest. I know that rahimi hasn't done well this exam and he might not be promoted. I just want to tell him that he should balance his time well between cca and sudies. He is indeed the best and most enthusiastic amongst all of us, but he has to keep up the same with academics, it's no use to be good in everything except studies. I hope that he will choose the best path for himself right now so that he will succeed not only for cca but for studies too. What have I got to say about aaron? I think he's still pretty much the same as I had always known him, witty, and creative with the jokes. He's been in the same class as me for 3 years but we've since separated classes. He's still really pretty much the same. Although I think that he has been feeling depressed lately over his bgr affair and results. I have never see him really depressed before and it's affecting him, hope that he can get over things soon. What about jia hui? Haha, he's still very funny with the comments and animations. He shares all the same ccas as I do and shares the same interest and passion for np. He's great when it comes to asking for help on certain things, and you can trust him to give the most honest opinions about everything under the sun. He also has alot of experiences about different things, yup. But sometimes when it comes to being irritating he'll be really very irritating, so have to tahan him, if not then have to fight to put your point across, haha.
If I didn't mention any of your names, please don't blame me, because I have recollection problems...
For the first time, I had made myself enemies this year. First, with billy, then with jia jian, and almost with harry and hanley. Why I consider billy to be hostile is because of the way he sees us as. There was a time when we brought our rifles up to the classes for a short while for safekeeping, and billy happened to pass by and said something like, who want to touch dirty rifles. I was seriously offended by the statement and had a good mind to bash him to the bone, but of course, I couldn't, so I just let it pass. Like I said, I no longer want to have any bad blood between the two ccas. Then comes jia jian. I know that I had really sparked off his wrong nerve by spinning in the first place, then came a series of unpleasant events, but like I said again, I'm sorry to him, and I'm sorry for all the crap I've created for them. I hope that we can return to being on friendly terms.
Love life? Stop dreaming and wake up. Cold water to wake up. This never happens in reality. You don't want to be me. Through this half of the year, I had played the goddamned Heartbreak game. And guess what? I won. Because I had recieved the most amounts of crushes and stabs to the heart than I had ever experienced in my entire teenage life. I'm sick and tired of one-sided affairs and I'm sick and tired of my chest aching and my eyes watering. I've had enough. It would do me enough good to stay out of these kinds of things for a while. Time will heal the wounds, I hope.
--< blabbered at 8:23 PM >--
